“I’ve made this site mainly for myself. But also for you. Even if it’s just you. Maybe you will find an answer in here somewhere.”
Welcome. Whomever you are, I’m glad you’re here.
This is something I’ve wanted to do for years. I haven’t until now because frankly, I’ve been an introvert in most settings, for most of my life. Sharing my inner world with others has never been a natural or comfortable experience for me.
That is until I discovered poetry. I don’t mean the stuffy, frilly prose (not usually a fan) your teacher pushed on you in your propaganda prison days. I mean crazy shit like Celebration of The Lizard by James Douglas Morrison. What a mental turn-on that kind of reading was.
I was in my very early teens when I found writing poetry allowed me to express my inner world. Thoughts, dreams, observations that other people I knew didn’t seem to have, or at least appear to have an interest in. Big picture thoughts.
While time fillers, details and duties of life, (like school or baseball or telling somebody what I wanted to be when I grew up) bored me; I found an outlet for all of my big picture kind of thoughts in poetry. And that made me feel alive in a way nothing else ever had. Unlike homework or friends or grand ambitions, writing poetry had no rules. No expectations. The beat poets had taught me that. I could draw way outside of the lines. Not boring.
At some point, I began writing poetry that would take me days to figure out what the full meaning was. One such piece had bore insight into a question I had been pondering, upon re reading much later. So what had seemed like nonsense lines earlier weren’t so nonsense anymore.
Writing poetry became much more important at that point. It wasn’t just a tool for expression anymore, or something I could tease girls with. It was an oracle. My own, personal cosmic computer that crunched the numbers for me and spat out code. Code that I could hopefully interpret and work into my life and worldview.
It’s as though the work comes to me from another plane or higher dimension. Transdimensional. From a place of greater scope and perspective than I have as my mundane, human self.
I’ve made this site mainly for myself. But also for you. Even if it’s just you. Maybe you will find an answer in here somewhere. Even if you’re the only one who reads this work, it’s worth my effort. Maybe you’ll be inspired yourself to produce your own puzzle piece. Maybe nobody but the NSA, FBI, DHS, CIA and some militarized, local police with too many toys will read. I don’t know but, here it goes.
– JL Harrington, TdP